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Waiting for Bardo

I’d like to tell you about the foundational thinking, study, and influences that have gone into this endeavor but it might ruin everything.

“His creative temperature seems to oscillate between Emily Bronte at one extreme and Flannery O’Connor at the other. He doesn’t think like a male; he thinks like a woman who thinks like a male. On his easier days, he was Healthcliff. If you crossed him, he was the girl with the dragon tattoo. No matter how you twisted it, he was a funnel cloud. And nobody saw this. Nobody had a clue because he had always channeled it into some kind of creative work.

“I said to him one night in the mid-90s: ‘Know what, Boo Boo? These songs of yours are so incredibly tender. And way down there deep, you might be the single most bitter person I ever met.

‘He turned white and said in the coldest voice I ever heard, “Please do not ever call me that again because I’m afraid that one day I might lose it.”

I pitched a glass of flat Dr. Pepper in his face and said, “Who died and made you Edgar Allen Poe?”

It was the wrong thing to say because it turns out they have the same birthday, which happened to be that very night. To make matters worse, the criminals who worked from that vacant corner lot on La Break had scored a few crates of Moldavan absinthe and I bought a case.

That’s when we were living in the creepy house at the bottom of a dead end, two-thirds up the shifty hill that overlooked the Golden State. Birthday, absinthe, tormented childhood. I mean, ‘Hello fucking bardo.’

We found out later that three prior residents had gone completely mad in that place. It was an eccentricly built bungalow-ish thing built into the side of the hill, of field stone and local timbre, 1924 — a middling specimen of faux craftsman. It reminded me of a painting by an artist more determined than gifted, one who wouldn’t be that sorry to hear something go bump in the driveway on the way out. WTF? Was that the muse? So they throw it in reverse and back over it again.


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It all begins with an idea.

It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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It all begins with an idea.

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Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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